How do you think it feels?

knowing yours isn't the gift on his bedside table

knowing yours isn't the song playing in his car

knowing you're not the face on his wallpaper anymore

knowing he no longer has pictures of you on his phone

knowing yours isn't the email he was waiting for all day

knowing yours isn't the number memorised in his head

knowing yours aren't the calls he'll jump to answer

knowing yours isn't the birthday circled on his calendar

knowing you're not the girl holding his hand

knowing you're not the girl thats making him smile

knowing you're not the first thought in his head when he wakes up

and the last before he goes to sleep at night

knowing you're not the girl whose name makes him nervous

knowing you're not the girl who lights up his eyes

knowing you're not the girl giving him butterflies

knowing you're not the girl he dreams of all night

knowing you're not the girl he ll spend every moment with 

knowing you're no longer the girl he'll instantly turn to for help

knowing you're not the girl he'll share his every day with

knowing now there's someone else in his head

knowing it's over, for good this time

knowing you're his past and your future isn't him

knowing that time has extinguished your flame

knowing the next time your phone rings, days weeks months from now,

        that phone call, that text ..that still wont be from him...

~M

The Last Waltz

I take your hand as you lead me to the dance floor

I'm in your arms, I'm yours tonight

It may be wrong, but i don't know why

This feeling just seems so right

I look into your eyes, I can see your soul

I see my whole world in there

All I've ever lived for, all that's ever mattered

Tonight it's right here...

A silent tear touches my cheek

But you catch it with your hands so warm

My strength is drained, I feel so weak

But you hold me as we dance along

Time seems still, life is bliss

Alas fate has different plans

And all too soon this dream

This life has got to end

As the music dies and you let go

I feel like I'm falling apart

My heart goes numb, my tears won't stop

But time just wouldn't wait

Forever and ever, I'll always remember

This love, this feeling so true

I'll live this night all my life

This Last Waltz with You......

~ M

You won't be his first, his last, or his only. He's loved before, and he will love again ... But if he loves you now, what else matters ? He's not perfect and neither are you, which both of you will never be. But if he makes you laugh, at least once causes you to think twice, and he admits to being human and to making mistakes, hold on to him and give him all you've got. He's not going to quote poetry, and he isn't going to be thinking about you every single moment of every single day, but he will give you a part of him, that he knows you can break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, don't expect too much from him. But smile when he makes you happy, cry when he makes you sad, and miss him when he's not there with you ...

Here's Why ...

“Maybe it’s best if you let go,

Times change and life goes on,

Why? “, she asked, “Why the hope?

Why are you still holding on?”

My eyes are wet, but I smile anyway,

And as I turn to her, this is what I say:

Because he’s the last person I think about

                Every night before I fall asleep

Because every time his eyes meet mine

                He sweeps me off my feet

Because his is the first face I want to see

                Every morning as I open my eyes

Because I know I can’t forget his smile

                Even after a million tries

Because every time I am with him

                Everything else just fades to gray

And the way he says my name

                Still takes my breath away

Because somehow I feel like he’s here

                Whenever they play our song

Because every time we talk on the phone

                Thoughts of him haunt me all night long

Because every time I hear his voice

It brings a smile to my face

Because every time I feel close to him

                It takes me to my happy place

Because every time he cracks a joke

                He makes me laugh like no one else can

Because all the time we spent together

                I was happier than I’ve ever been

Because sometimes when I want to break down and cry

                I still need to put up a false pretence

And somewhere through this hollow emptiness

                I can somehow sense his presence

Because every time I feel alone and weak

                I realize why I’ve held on for so long

And I look up at the sky, the stars, the moon

                And I tell myself, come what may, I’ll always have the strength to hold on

Because I’ve felt a love like never before

                And it made my world just seem so right

Because nobody ever says it easy

                But at the end, it’s always worth the fight

Because without him standing by my side

                My life is empty, incomplete

Because when I told him “I won’t let go”

                It was a promise I meant to keep

Because somehow, somewhere deep inside my heart

                I still believe in fate

Because someday we’ll be together forever

                And I know he’s worth the wait …

~M