How do you think it feels?

knowing yours isn't the gift on his bedside table

knowing yours isn't the song playing in his car

knowing you're not the face on his wallpaper anymore

knowing he no longer has pictures of you on his phone

knowing yours isn't the email he was waiting for all day

knowing yours isn't the number memorised in his head

knowing yours aren't the calls he'll jump to answer

knowing yours isn't the birthday circled on his calendar

knowing you're not the girl holding his hand

knowing you're not the girl thats making him smile

knowing you're not the first thought in his head when he wakes up

and the last before he goes to sleep at night

knowing you're not the girl whose name makes him nervous

knowing you're not the girl who lights up his eyes

knowing you're not the girl giving him butterflies

knowing you're not the girl he dreams of all night

knowing you're not the girl he ll spend every moment with 

knowing you're no longer the girl he'll instantly turn to for help

knowing you're not the girl he'll share his every day with

knowing now there's someone else in his head

knowing it's over, for good this time

knowing you're his past and your future isn't him

knowing that time has extinguished your flame

knowing the next time your phone rings, days weeks months from now,

        that phone call, that text ..that still wont be from him...

~M