This one's for you

For believing in me when I'd lost faith in myself. For challenging me every step on the way. For shaking me out of my comfort zone and forcing me to think about where I was standing and where I wanted to be.

Everyone understands relationships and love and the likes. But what we had, it was so much more than that. It was friendship - pure and simple. No ulterior motive, no complications. Yet, funnily enough, the dynamics of our friendship have always been so much more complicated! I suppose, at the end, that's what made it so special.

My most memorable times aren't from clubbing or beach parties. It's that moment that I was sitting in your room, the night before I was leaving, and you gave me a hug and told me it'll all be okay. And you held on for just a few seconds longer. I felt safe. Secure. I felt like no matter what changes, the friend I found in you will always be there.

The time when I had my head on your shoulder and we were listening to songs. And you put your arm around me. You knew I was beginning to cry, but you didn't say a word. No words would have helped. You just held me, like you always have.

The time when we ordered pizza, a few days before finals. We were sitting on the couches in the lounge. And we spent hours talking about our first year at university. About how things had started out, and how we had reached where we are now. We were both laughing and crying all at once. We had exams in a few days and both knew we should wrap up dinner and study, but somehow, that discussion, that time together was so much more important.

Yes, a lot has happened in these four years, and a lot has changed. A lot of people have grown up and grown apart. Yet some of us have managed to fight the odds and save what we've got. 

And I'm grateful that we were one of those.

I wanted to leave you a small note to say thanks. Thank you for all those memories. Thank you for holding me and telling me it'll be okay. Thank you for calming me down when I turned up at your door at 3 am, crying.

You've always been there, always understood, even the times when I felt like you didn't. 

And I don't know if I am even close to being the friend that you've been to me. 

But I promise I'll always be there whenever you need me. Every step of the way.

Thank you. For everything.