Monday, June 27, 2011

The Innocence of a Child


I read this somewhere awhile back, and would love to share it with anyone who drops by my page !


The Innocence of a Child
"We were the only family with children in the restaurant. I sat Erik in a high chair and noticed everyone was quietly eating and talking. Suddenly, Erik squealed with glee and said, “Hi there.” He pounded his fat baby hands on the highchair tray. His eyes were wide with excitement and his mouth was bared in a toothless grin. He wriggled and giggled with glee.
I looked around and saw the source of his merriment. It was a man with a tattered rag of a coat, dirty, greasy and worn. His pants were baggy with a zipper at half-mast and his toes poked out of would-be shoes. His shirt was dirty and his hair was uncombed and unwashed. His whiskers were too short to be called a beard and his nose was so varicose it looked like a road map. We were too far from him to smell, but I was sure he smelled. His hands waved and flapped on loose wrists. “Hi there, baby; hi there, big boy. I see ya, buster,” the man said to Erik.
My husband and I exchanged looks, “What do we do?” Erik continued to laugh and answer, “Hi, hi there.” Everyone in the restaurant noticed and looked at us and then at the man. The old geezer was creating a nuisance with my beautiful baby.
Our meal came and the man began shouting from across the room, “Do ya know patty cake? Do you know peek-a-boo? Hey, look, he knows peek-a-boo.” Nobody thought the old man was cute. He was obviously drunk. My husband and I were embarrassed. We ate in silence, all except for Erik, who was running through his repertoire for the admiring skid-row bum, who in turn, reciprocated with his cute comments.
We finally got through the meal and headed for the door. My husband went to pay the check and told me to meet him in the parking lot. The old man sat poised between me and the door. “Lord, just let me out of here before he speaks to me or Erik,” I prayed. As I drew closer to the man, I turned my back trying to sidestep him and avoid any air he might be breathing. As I did, Erik leaned over my arm, reaching with both arms in a baby’s “pick-me-up” position. Before I could stop him,Erik had propelled himself from my arms to the man’s. Suddenly a very old smelly man and a very young baby consummated their love relationship. Erik in an act of total trust, love, and submission laid his tiny head upon the man’s ragged shoulder.
The man’s eyes closed, and I saw tears hover beneath his lashes. His aged hands full of grime, pain, and hard labor-gently, so gently, cradled my baby’s bottom and stroked his back. No two beings have ever loved so deeply for so short a time. I stood awestruck. The old man rocked and cradled Erik in his arms for a moment, and then his eyes opened and set squarely on mine. He said in a firm commanding voice, “You take care of this baby.” Somehow I managed, “I will,” from a throat that contained a stone. He pried Erik from his chest-unwillingly, longingly, as though he were in pain. I received my baby, and the man said, “God bless you, ma’am, you’ve given me my Christmas gift.”
With Erik in my arms, I ran for the car. My husband was wondering why I was crying and holding Erik so tightly, and why I was saying, “My God, my God, forgive me.” I had just witnessed Christ’s love shown through the innocence of a tiny child who saw no sin, who made no judgment; a child who saw a soul, and a mother who saw a suit of clothes. I was a Christian who was blind, holding a child who was not. I felt it was God asking “Are you willing to share your son for a moment?”when He shared His for all eternity. The ragged old man, unwittingly, had reminded me, “To enter the Kingdom of God, we must become as little children.”

Friday, June 3, 2011

Here's Why ...


“Maybe it’s best if you let go,
Times change and life goes on,
Why? “, she asked, “Why the hope?
Why are you still holding on?”

My eyes are wet, but I smile anyway,
And as I turn to her, this is what I say:

Because he’s the last person I think about
                Every night before I fall asleep
Because every time his eyes meet mine
                He sweeps me off my feet

Because his is the first face I want to see
                Every morning as I open my eyes
Because I know I can’t forget his smile
                Even after a million tries

Because every time I am with him
                Everything else just fades to gray
And the way he says my name
                Still takes my breath away

Because somehow I feel like he’s here
                Whenever they play our song
Because every time we talk on the phone
                Thoughts of him haunt me all night long

Because every time I hear his voice
It brings a smile to my face
Because every time I feel close to him
                It takes me to my happy place

Because every time he cracks a joke
                He makes me laugh like no one else can
Because all the time we spent together
                I was happier than I’ve ever been

Because sometimes when I want to break down and cry
                I still need to put up a false pretence
And somewhere through this hollow emptiness
                I can somehow sense his presence

Because every time I feel alone and weak
                I realize why I’ve held on for so long
And I look up at the sky, the stars, the moon
                And I tell myself, come what may, I’ll always have the strength to hold on

Because I’ve felt a love like never before
                And it made my world just seem so right
Because nobody ever says it easy
                But at the end, it’s always worth the fight

Because without him standing by my side
                My life is empty, incomplete
Because when I told him “I won’t let go”
                It was a promise I meant to keep

Because somehow, somewhere deep inside my heart
                I still believe in fate
Because someday we’ll be together forever
                And I know he’s worth the wait …


~M