"The future is scary. But you can't just run back to the past because it's familiar. Yes, it's tempting... But it's a mistake ... " - Robin Scherbatsky

So I received a text from him today morning. And now I'll probably finally call him up and talk to him on the phone today evening.

Now the thing is, I do want to talk to him. No doubt about that. But I am afraid of what that phone call might trigger. I haven't talked to him in so long, and now suddenly, it's like old times again. What if that spark is still there? What if I haven't gotten over him in the first place? And I've only been thinking I have cos things have been so different lately...


And I've been going over and over this since morning. And I think I've finally understood what I'm so worried about. It's not like I ll feel that way about him again or anything. I do realise its stupid and impractical and will never really work, so its senseless to put myself through that again.


The reason I might start feeling that way is because being with him means I don't have to worry about being with someone else. Yes, I know it sounds stupid, but hear me out!

Ever since we broke up, I've lost that little comfortable place I used to run to every time things went wrong. I'm afraid of trying new things and taking chances. The very prospect of liking someone again terrifies me cos it won't work out and I'll end up unhappy. But when it comes to this guy, I knew pretty much where and how things will be. It's as if all this time I've been treading unknown territory, trying to make it by myself, and then suddenly I get the option of running back to a past I knew.

The future is unknown and unpredictable, and I don't have the slightest idea how I'll make it by myself. And that scares the hell out of me.And now, I'm afraid I'll run back to the past cos its familiar.
"Yes, its tempting,
But it's a mistake ..."